How can you have a future if you can’t accept your past?
Mel Hannigan doesn’t have it easy. Mourning the death of her crazy firework of a brother, trying to fit back into a school she’s been conspicuously absent from and struggling to deal with the loss of three friendships that used to mean everything. Struggling to deal with a condition that not even her closest friends know about.
So Mel tries to lock away her heart, to numb the highs and lows, to live quietly without hope – but also without pain. Until someone new shows her that it can be worth taking a risk, that opening up to life is what can make it glorious…
And that maybe, Mel can discover a tragic kind of wonderful of her very own.
About the author
Novelist Eric Lindstrom is a veteran of the interactive entertainment industry. His writing has been nominated for a BAFTA award for Best Videogame Screenplay in Tomb Raider: Legend, and a WGA award for Best Writing in a Videogame for Tomb Raider: Underworld. Not If I See You First was his debut novel.
‘Enjoyable, clever and honest. Definitely a must for fans of The Perks of Being a Wallflower’ Kimi Wright, Waterstones
‘A heartfelt story, abut the realities of teenage life along with living with bipolar [disorder]’ Verity, 15, Lovereading4kids
‘An intimate and affecting portrait of mental illness helmed by an achingly real protagonist’ Kirkus
PRAISE FOR NOT IF I SEE YOU FIRST:
‘Gorgeous, romantic, heart-rending’ Maximum Pop!
‘Not If I See You First is thoughtful and honest, with characters that made me laugh, cry, and surprised me at every turn. It’s a book I’ll recommend for years to come.’ Kody Keplinger, author of The Duff and co-founder of Disability in KidLit